Mildred’s Parents Accepted Her Marriage by Diamond Forde

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Mildred’s Parents Accepted Her Marriage

but my parents stress in secret.
At the table in his single room
apartment, dad serves us burritos
hosed with ketchup, a mock

on the salsa he can’t afford
but won’t admit. Instead
bites down his meal, swears
he always made burritos this way

and my sister and I, cloudless
against the gray of financial crisis,
roll our eyes and laugh, having seen
our father’s memory make holes

to fill with fiction: the gifts
he was sure he bought us, the beaches
he knew we visited, the tattered years
of his marriage to my mother

drilled and whittled
to a lost home, a Ford Taurus
with the transmission blown. Again,
my sister and I suspected

we were losing more
than a recollection of road
trips: mom sleeping in the passenger seat,
dad steering with his knee, glancing

to the backseat where we bob
and sing Little Red Corvette. The absence
my father must have felt
when we returned to our mother

and his apartment filled again
with the echo of forgotten work,
kitchen still acrid with ketchup.
Home again, I leaned

on the old Ford, read romance novels,
knew nothing
of the hurt that centered around me
like an inadvertent sun.

I didn’t know my parents divorced
until it happened. Even now,
when my parents tell me they’re okay
with me dating a white man

I look more like them than I mean to:
smile a delicate line
of tolerance, having been taught
drama in movie clichés, low angle

shots that never happen
between us. We eat our fears
like bruised tomatoes,
tongues searching for good.