this american life, #556: same bed, different dreams by Maggie Cooper

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things he wanted:

good coffee
someone to dance with 
poetry
enough money to buy a plane ticket to Spain 

things she wanted:

a warm body
pancakes on Sunday mornings
a black cat with white markings
to hear her voice on this american life 

things they’ll remember next time: 

even great love can’t protect you from another person wanting what they want*

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his tattoos:

a fishing boat, sailing across the muscles of his back in shades of brown
Greek letters on both wrists, love and agony
an alarm clock set to five o’clock on his upper arm 

her tattoos:

a tenpenny nail below her breast 
hibiscus flowers, left ankle 
a ladder on her forearm
three stars of David tracing the freckles on her neck  

things a body carries like tattoos: 

memories—needles piercing through skin, her teeth on his lips, the screen door left open the day she left him and moved back to the city 

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what he lost:

a faded college sweatshirt 

eighty dollars in tickets, for parking overnight on Main Street 
one package of gel-tip pens

what she lost:

the chair he broke the night they got high 
a public radio tote bag 

too many hair ties to count 
the unassailable sense of knowing exactly what she wanted  

things they lost:

time—the twenty minute drive to the clam shack, a week in the mountains, three months of Sunday mornings with sunlight pouring across the sheets 

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she dreams:

her father making breakfast 
miles of film unspooled in a room with no windows
immaculate conception, crying, a baby

he dreams:

a glittering party with slim-cut suits and gin and tonics 
an ex-girlfriend behind the high school gym 
a sea monster that rises from the depths, shipwrecks 

things they both dream about: 

mermaids with long flowing hair, gunshot wounds at the scene of the crime, flying

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*This line is taken from the This American Life episode referenced in the title

Maggie Cooper is a graduate of the Clarion Writers Workshop and the MFA program at the University of North Carolina at Greensboro. Her writing has appeared in The RumpusNinth Letter, andelsewhere, and her chapbook, The Theme Park of Women’s Bodies, is forthcoming from Bull City Press. You can find her on Twitter @frecklywench.

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